"Sharing can be a way of healing. Grief and loss can isolate,
anger even alienate. Shared with others, emotions unite
as we see we aren't alone. We realize others weep with us."
~Susan Wittig Albert

Through our writing, we walk out of the darkness into the light
together, one small step at a time, recording history, educating
America, and we are healing.
~CJ/Todd Dierdorff



Tuesday, January 29, 2013

One Night In Nam 1968

by Charles Atkinson





I remember one night during TET in 1968. I was on guard duty near the back gate at LONG BIHN.

 At about midnight, one of the guys lit up a joint and I didn't want the odor of the joint to alert the VC. 

Well, I totally lost it. I knocked him down, took my M-14, locked and loaded, and stuck the barrel in his mouth and had the other guard call the Sgt. of the Guard and ask that he come out ASAP.

When he arrived, I had cooled down a little bit. The Sgt. took that guard and replaced him on the spot. 

Nothing ever happened to me because of it, but I don't know about the other guy. This happened sometime in January of 1968, but I don't remember the exact date.

CJ Atkinson
US Army


Thank you for sharing your experience, Charles, and Welcome Home.
~CJ


“I am only one, but I am one. I can't do everything, but I can do something. The something I ought to do, I can do, and by the grace of God, I will.” ~Everett Hale


Monday, January 28, 2013

A Vietnam Memory: Kurt Knoblock

My name is Kurt Knoblock. My tour in Vietnam was from July of 1969 to December of 1970.   I was assigned to the First Signal Brigade.

The first thing that I remember upon landing in Vietnam at Bien Hoa, was the smell.   The smell along with the heat made you sick right away.

I processed into my company and about two weeks later, the First Sgt. informed me that he was assigning me to our signal site at Bien Hoa. Then he made a comment that I have never forgotten.
 
"I hope you like rockets and mortars, because Bien Hoa gets a lot of VC rockets and mortars."

I arrived on site and I had a window where I could look out.  We were hit almost every night for about five months, although there were breaks in this. I lost count of the actual number of times we were hit, but it always happened in the very early morning hours. It is hard to explain to people what this was like.  In the morning you would find shrapnel laying around with Russian and Chinese markings on it.

To this day I do not sleep through the night and any little sound wakes me.

Kurt Knoblock
First Signal Brigade
Bien Hoa, Vietnam
1969/1970

Thank you so much for sharing your experience, Kurt, and Welcome Home.
~CJ


“I am only one, but I am one. I can't do everything, but I can do something. The something I ought to do, I can do, and by the grace of God, I will.” ~Everett Hale


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Sunday, January 27, 2013

Vietnam 1966/1967


by Charles Atkinson

In 1966/1967, I was stationed with the 67th Evac Hospital in Qui Nhon, South Vietnam. We were waiting for the completion of the new building for us.

One day, a fighter jet made several passes over our air field there. One end of the air field was right at the road in the village. The other end was a road between it and the ocean. All of the GI's were watching overhead.

All of a sudden the jet came in at roof top level. When it landed, we watched as the left tire blew out and that put the hospital right in line to be hit -- and the jet had a napalm bomb.

They dropped the bomb on a pile of sand and we were lucky it did not go off. The pilot managed to pull the jet back on the runway but it still ran through the fence and the front wheel stopped in the water. I was taking pictures the entire time.

After it was all over, three or four MPs tapped me on my shoulder and took the roll of film from my camera. They told me I could have it back when I left Nam. I never did get the film back so I have no record of ever the taking the pictures.

CJ Atkinson

Mechanic, 67th Army Evac Hospital
3 Years, Vietnam
9 Years, Germany
14 Months, Thailand


Thank you for sharing your amazing experience, Charles, and Welcome Home.
~CJ


“I am only one, but I am one. I can't do everything, but I can do something. The something I ought to do, I can do, and by the grace of God, I will.” ~Everett Hale

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Saturday, January 26, 2013

Vietnam 1966: J. Koontz


Who could ever forget our first experience in Vietnam?

We landed in Binh Hoa on Christmas Eve, 1966, in pouring rain and very high temperatures.

We had travelled in a C141 Transport from Benning to Vietnam via Alaska and Japan.

Our Christmas Eve was spent getting "setup" in tents and trying to get some sleep.

The following morning at a ridiculous hour, we were wakened for breakfast and a Santa in fatigues with gifts. It was a very unique Christmas Day. My first Christmas away from family at the ripe old age of 20.

Jim Koontz
Sgt. E/3/7, 199th


“I am only one, but I am one. I can't do everything, but I can do something. The something I ought to do, I can do, and by the grace of God, I will.” ~Everett Hale

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Friday, December 28, 2012

Poem: "Waves", by John Puzzo

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Waves
by John Puzzo

They are like the waves washing on shore,
58,237 of them. 

They just keep coming from way out there, 
until they wash up over your feet
and gently remind you of who they are
and who they were.

Sometimes the storms come 
and the waves are not so gentle.
That’s when they’re grabbing us, and shaking us,
to make us remember.

Then they slide back into the ocean.
But they’ll be back.
They never really left.

Sometimes they leave something behind
and it takes your breath away.

“Here comes mine. There he is.”
And just as quickly he comes to 
Fill your heart again, reaching you there 
on the shore.

Then he recedes once again. Back into the sea. 
58,237 others are making their way back to the shore
to meet theirs.

It takes a long time for 58,237 waves 
to come against the shores of our memory, 
where we wait to greet them.
But that’s alright. They’ll be back.

They don’t ever really leave us.
It would be like the sea itself suddenly evaporating.
They are the sea.

Those who only knew them on these shores,
the ones who sent them off –
“Be Safe. I will miss you. Write to me? 
Let me know if you need anything.”
And you never forget that face. 

Out there in the sea, with others of his kind 
he looks back at you,
still there, on the shore, with your feet in the sand.

You are the last thing he sees, too.
They share something very precious 
in the sea of sacrifice where they live now.

The ocean will never die. 
It will keep sending them back to us
to remember.
Waves.



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John J. Puzzo
K Company (Ranger)
75th Infantry (Airborne)
United States Army 1968 - 1971












John is the published author of two books about Vietnam.  He is a brilliant public speaker, and an all-around good guy from Connecticut.  

"The Highlanders In the Viet Nam War"
"Vietnam and Hollywood"

Other Articles by John Puzzo:



“I am only one, but I am one. I can't do everything, but I can do something. The something I ought to do, I can do, and by the grace of God, I will.” ~Everett Hale


Feel free to comment on this post. You are also invited to write about anything you feel comfortable sharing. Memoirs From Nam is YOUR blog. You are writing America's history, sharing the truth about the Vietnam veteran, and what it was like in Our War.



Thursday, November 22, 2012

"Tank"

They told me the big black Lab's name was Reggie, as I looked at him lying in his pen. The shelter was clean, no-kill, and the people were really friendly. I'd only been in the area for six months, but everywhere I went in the small college town, people were welcoming and open. Everyone even waves when you pass them on the street.

But something was still missing and as I attempted to settle in to my new life here, I thought a dog couldn't hurt. It would give me someone to talk to. I had just seen Reggie's advertisement on the local news. The shelter said they had received numerous calls right after it aired, but they said the people who had come down to see him just didn't look like "Lab" people, whatever that meant. They must've thought I did.

At first, I thought the shelter had misjudged me in giving me Reggie and his things, which consisted of a dog pad, bag of toys almost all of which were brand new tennis balls, his dishes, and a sealed letter from his previous owner. See, Reggie and I didn't really hit it off when we got home. We struggled for two weeks (which is how long the shelter told me to give him to adjust to his new home). Maybe it was the fact that I was trying to adjust, too. Or maybe, it was because we were just too much alike.

Then I saw the sealed envelope among his things. I had completely forgotten about it. "Okay, Reggie," I said out loud, "let's see if your previous owner has any advice."

The letter:

To Whomever Gets My Dog:

Well, I can't say that I'm happy you're reading this. It's a letter I told the shelter could only be opened by Reggie's new owner. I'm not even happy about writing it. If you're reading it, it means I just got back from my last car ride with my Lab, after dropping him off with the shelter -- he knew something was different. I've packed up his pad and toys before and set them by the back door before a trip, but this was different ... it's like he knew something was wrong, and something is wrong ... which is why I have to go try and make it right.  


So let me tell you about my Lab in the hopes that it will help you bond with him and he with you.

First, he loves tennis balls. The more the merrier. Sometimes I think he's part squirrel, the way he hoards them. He usually always has two in his mouth, and he tries to get a third in there. Hasn't done it yet. Doesn't matter where you throw them, he'll bound after them, so be careful. Don't do it by any roads. I made that mistake once, and it almost cost him dearly.

Next, commands. Maybe the shelter staff already told you, but I'll go over them again.  He knows the obvious ones ---"sit," "stay," "come," "heel." He knows hand signals, too: "back" to turn around and go back with the hand straight up.  "Over" if you put your hand out, right or left.  He knows "down" when he feels like laying down -- I bet you could work on that some more with him. He knows "ball" and "food" and "bone" and "treat" like nobody's business.

Feeding schedule: twice a day, once at seven in the morning, and again at about six in the evening, the regular store-bought stuff; the shelter has the brand. 


He's up on his shots. Call the clinic on 9th Street.  They will update my info with yours and they'll make sure to send reminders when he's due.  Be forewarned: Reggie hates the vet. Good luck getting him in the car. I don't know how he knows when it's time to go to the vet, but he knows.

Finally, give him some time. I've never been married.  It's only been Reggie and me for his whole life. He's gone everywhere with me, so please include him on your daily car rides, if you can. He sits well in the back seat, and he doesn't bark or complain. He just loves to be around people and me most especially. 

Which means this transition is going to be hard, with him going to live with someone new.  And that's why I need to share one more bit of info with you...

His name's not Reggie. 

I don't know what made me do it, but when I dropped him off at the shelter, I told them his name was Reggie.  He's a smart dog, he'll get used to it and will respond to it, of that I have no doubt. But I just couldn't bear to give them his real name. It just seemed so final, and by handing him over to the shelter, it was almost like admitting I would never see him again.  But if someone is reading this ... well it means that his new owner should know his real name. 

His real name is "Tank." Because, that is what I drive.

I told the shelter that they couldn't make "Reggie" available for adoption until they received word from my company commander. You see, my parents are gone, I have no siblings, no one I could've left Tank with ... And it was my only real request of the Army upon my deployment to Iraq, that they make one phone call to the shelter ... In the "event" ... To tell them that Tank could be put up for adoption. Luckily, my CO is a dog-guy, too, and he knew where my platoon was headed. He said he'd do it personally. And if you're reading this, then he made good on his word.

Tank has been my family for the last six years, almost as long as the Army has been my family. And now I hope and pray that you make him part of your family, too, and that he will adjust and come to love you the same way he loved me.

That unconditional love from a dog is what I took with me to Iraq as my inspiration to do something selfless to protect innocent people from those who do terrible things.  If I have to give up Tank in order to do it, I am glad to have done so. He is my example of service and of love. I hope I honored him by my service to my country and comrades.

All right, that's enough. I deploy this evening and have to drop this letter off at the shelter. Maybe I'll peek in on him and see if he finally got that third tennis ball in his mouth. Good luck with Tank. Give him a good home, and give him an extra kiss goodnight - every night - from me.

Thank you,
Paul Mallory

I folded the letter and slipped it back in the envelope. Sure, I had heard of Paul Mallory, everyone in town knew him, even new people like me. Local kid, killed in Iraq a few months ago and posthumously earning the Silver Star when he gave his life to save three buddies. Flags have been at half-mast all summer.

I leaned forward in my chair and rested my elbows on my knees, staring at the dog. “Hey, Tank," I said quietly. The dog's head whipped up, his ears cocked and his eyes bright. "C'mere boy." He was instantly on his feet, his nails clicking on the hardwood floor. He sat in front of me, his head tilted, searching for the name he hadn't heard in months. "Tank," I whispered. His tail swished.

I kept whispering his name, over and over, and each time, his ears lowered, his eyes softened, and his posture relaxed as a wave of contentment just seemed to flood him. I stroked his ears, rubbed his shoulders, buried my face into his scruff and hugged him. "It's me now, Tank, just you and me. Your old pal gave you to me." Tank reached up and licked my cheek. "So whatdaya say we play some ball?" His ears perked again. "Yeah? Ball? You like that? Ball?" Tank tore from my hands and disappeared into the next room. And when he came back, he had three tennis balls in his mouth.

If you can read this without getting a lump in your throat or a tear in your eye, you just ain't right. A veteran is someone who, at one point, wrote a blank check made payable to 'The United States of America' for an amount of 'up to and including their life.' That is Honor, and there are way too many people in this country who no longer understand it.

The true soldier fights not because he hates what is in front of him, but because he loves what is behind him.

(Author Unknown)


“I am only one, but I am one. I can't do everything, but I can do something. The something I ought to do, I can do, and by the grace of God, I will.” ~Everett Hale

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